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  • Omer’s Odyssey

    Omer found himself all over social media ever since ABC beamed, “A Turkish engineer unearths rare Islamic mosaic in Brisbane”. The mad frenzy didn’t abate even after weeks. It happened on a typical day at Odyssey Constructions when Omer got ready to dig tunnels, drill pipes and drive machinery around the CBD site. The site to be cleared up to rise a fifty-storey building after demolishing a hundred year old house.

    He rang Nate, the ABC journalist, who had by then become a friend. “Did you need to call me a ‘Turkish Engineer’? I feel like I have been in Australia forever”.

    “Nah, Omer, I get it. But you know how it works.”

    “Madness. Ever since I grabbed that crooked old stone plate out of a rusted old trunk. I hope it is worth something. Anyways, they snatched it from me. And you guys keep pestering me for more information. Madness”.

    “Omer, there is something about the art work – the colour patterns you see in Turkish lamps. They are saying it must be a few centuries-old. But how did it travel all the way to Australia. Also, why was it buried under the backyard of this particular house. Do you know who lived there ? Back in the day, the grandfather of Mr. Rob Satter, the notorious Queensland MP who can’t shut up about immigration. Yeah, mate. the same Mr. Satter. And would he prefer any connection with a Mediterranean relic – he almost punched me last month when I gently probed him of his ancestry”.

    “Is he Turkish?”

    “Not sure, Omer. Well, he claims to be a 100% Aussie.”

    “I am sure there is a Turkish connection. To the stone, I mean. I remember similar tiles with patterns from my childhood in my grandmother’s village. She told me stories – mostly she made up stories out of images painted in the tiles. Moral tiles. Moral tales, I mean. I miss her”.

    “Wait. Maybe you can guess the story of this mosaic. I took a high resolution picture. It is broken of course, but you can see the painting clearly. A tall old man standing up, a cat stretching up in two legs, watching him, and several mice surrounding them. What does it mean, Omer?”

    “Nate, mate. Im not a historian. I drill holes. You are the journalist. You said some researchers are onto it”. They chatted for a while.

    Omer saw no point. He got back to his routine of drilling and draught beer. But his sleep was broken. The other night he felt he heard something. A tall man stood in the doorway, holding a crushed hat under his arm, combing his long, black hair. He took out something from a bag that appeared heavy for his hands. He carried it to Omer, walking with majesty. Grandfather?

    No, this is not real. Omer reminded himself he had fought away those childhood nightmares. “Close your eyes and imagine walking into the cave I told you about, Omer”, his grandmother used to say. For a while he grew up around such imagined rivers and caves. And then she was gone one day, and he grew up to be a serious person.

    When he woke up he saw a few missed calls from Nate.

    “Omer, its gone mate. The mosaic was reported stolen yesterday. DIdn’t you say it was heavy?”

    Nate went on without waiting for an answer. “It is as if the stone never existed. Mr. Satter should be relieved”.

    That was a year ago. While Nate kept digging for a connection to Mr. Satter’s ancestors, Omer quietly returned to his family in Istanbul and joined a construction company.

    Once in a while, the image of the mural would flash in his mind. Perhaps his grandmother would have cracked the puzzle. She would have weaved a nice story connecting the old man and the cat and mice. After all, isn’t that what grand mothers do?

    Omer was surprised when Nate called.

    “How did you get my number?”

    “Omer, I found something!”

    “The stone thingy, what you call that? Mural mosaic?”

    “No, mate.”

    “The connection to Mr. Satter’s ancestory?”

    “Yeah, no. not yet. I’m close. One day, I will. “

    “Oh. what did you find then?”

    “The puzzle. The story in the painting. This might sound like what your grandmother would narrate. Yesterday I walked into this cafe in Eagle street, and this wooden sculpture greeted me. The exact same shape of the mural art work. The Indian guy who runs the cafe was intrigued by my curiosity. He said this depicts an ancient tale. The old man, eyes closed, is praying hard, the cat is mimicking and mocking the old man, the mice. And they are laughing at the cat which is no longer a threat. He then gave me a philosophy lesson too. That, life is a joke.

    Omer chuckled to himself. Closed his eyes, said a quiet prayer, as if whispering to his long gone grandmother, and dissolved into an unbroken sleep.

    Papers on his desk bristled in the morning gust. The long ray gleamed on the words of the first page of his manuscript. “Omer’s Odyssey”

    “This is the story of Omer, the persecuted 18th century artist who belonged to the people of Istanbul, yet rebelled against kings and religious leaders and fanatical followers. Evicted from his village, imprisoned in a cave, he kept making art, fusing broken pebbles with lime, painting with his blood. He cried out a curse: The great river Bosporus will flood one day, flushing this mural out, the stone and the story will swim about for a while. It will lay buried in the depths, until one day, it will be discovered by a boy named Omer, and he will carry it to the far ends of the world. It will belong to the world, it will capture people’s hearts, only for it will be hidden and buried again, to be discovered again, only to be lost and hidden and buried again, and to be found again by boy named Omer…..”

  • Short Story: Double Rainbow

    Monday finally arrived and Vikalp reviewed the events of the last week: the school gate closed on him, the new cycle deserted him, and the exams defeated him. The most upsetting thing was his parents blamed him for the bad turn of events. It was as if he agreed to be transferred to this all-boys school for the eleventh standard, to be in this non-descript place all day with these unknowns who write unmentionables on the wooden beams under which the bald and bespectacled chief of staff Charles Rangaraj sir announced last week of a new Physics teacher replacing Ms. Sheetal.

    Ms. Sheetal, this graceful lady amongst a gang of pot-bellied sirs. Who famously began her very first class with a greeting, “The future doctors and engineers of Coimbatore!”, as if she was certain of their destiny. Suddenly, Vikalp’s world was newborn. The way she described Young’s double-slit experiment was like watching a mystery movie. The day she explained Heisenberg’s uncertainty principle he went home dazzled. He swam along with variables of equations flying narrowly through the slits of a panel in a dark room and emerged as a rainbow on a wide screen. A double rainbow. He whispered things in his sleep. His grandmother recited her prayers. 

    Mostly, it all went over and around his tiny head. He would nag Mugil to explain what Ms. Sheetal taught. He stepped into the school library for the first time. “I don’t want to do engineering. I want to be teacher”, he promised Mugil. He was mesmerised by the wild trips Ms. Sheetal took the class, from the quantum to the infinite. How could she suddenly vanish?

    The school assembly had started when he entered. Shooed away by the watchman again, he climbed the gate to peep into the parking area. No sign of Ms. Sheetal’s lady-bird. A large cycle with a red seat resembling his own leaned against the wall. The assembly went into a hush and the choir boys sang their blues celebrating Hope and Grace and the Love of the Lord. Vikalp turned around and walked home.

    He went to Mugil’s house in the evening. “How’s the new teacher?”. Mugil peered into his eyes, smiled.

    The next day he arrived at school early and went to the toilet. Adjusting his hair, tucking in his shirt, he asked himself, “Teaching Physics, eh?” Charles Sir entered the mirror. “Come and see me in my office”.

    Vikalp knew he was in trouble. He took a detour via the staff room to see if there is a new face. The physics teacher’s desk was empty. On the book shelf across, he spotted a photo of an old woman’s face. Is that…?

    He ran towards the staff parking lane. The red-seated cycle stood straight.

    Vikalp hated standing outside Charles sir’s room. The peon scanned him face to bottom. My shoes dirty? My shirt tucked out? He scorned the rules and rituals of the school and its men.

    Vikalp hated standing inside even more. “So, you like Physics all of a sudden? Your father tells me. Your marks don’t tell me. Take Commerce. Easier for you”.

    “No sir. I will study harder, sir”. He evaded further questions, except for the probing words on a blue banner behind Charles sir: “Are You Smart?” 

    He returned to the staff corridor, browsing the shelves with a quick glance, and still catching the red-seated cycle in the corner of his eyes. The bell rang. He saw the Maths sir walking past, staring at him.

    Late. The class was silent, which meant the new Physics teacher should be in. He imagined all possible excuses. Or he could go home. Something urged him to try.

    “Sir, may I come in?”, he threw his request at the back of the new teacher’s head.

    “Yes, you may”, the man turned around. “Sit down”.

    Adjusting his hair, tucking in his already well-tucked-in shirt, the new sir addressed the class proper. “The future doctors and engineers of Coimbatore! My name is Vikalp. I too studied in his school, in this very room. The carvings are still up there.” The class giggled. “We had this wonderful teacher, Ms…”

    Vikalp sat gazing at the man, the blackboard behind him blurring into a dark room with equations dancing along and getting sucked into a narrow slit and emerging as a double-arch rainbow.

  • Poem: River Face

    To the bird, the river smiles,

    like a thousand leaves fluttering,

    shimmering and shaking,

    each claiming

    a piece of sun,

    each claiming

    to be a piece of sun.

     

    To the bird, the leaf rebels,

    scorns the metaphor.

    A thousand voices thunder:

    I suck in the sun.

    I am the sun!

  • My Words

    I borrowed the words of others
    To face the truth
    The unmistakable presence of reality
    My tongue swirled, blurted out sounds

    My eyes looked down, searched for nothing
    The ears got a lot from all
    I repeated what I heard
    My sense was not constant
    My fear was
    What I saw, what I said, what I felt
    Didn’t matter
    For, he was not there
    To watch, to feel, to hear

    He was there
    A month ago
    I said what I said
    Unpolished, raw, unleashed

    My words.
    Not borrowed.

  • Short Story : The Return

    Drishti slept badly and woke before the weak winter sunlight would meander about her Heidelberg University hostel. Instead of waiting for her alarm, she got up, showered, dressed, drank a cup of black coffee she barely got used to, and packed her suitcase. She waited for the call from her travel agent.

    She had decided the previous night to do the inevitable, to return to India for the Christmas break, a decision that would mean a break in her research work, money lost on unnecessary travel, mostly of the swallowing of her pride when she goes back to her aunt. Why would you remain at this time of the year alone in that bone-chilling place. Come back home and return to German after the new year break. Drishti would bite her aunt every time she went German. But last night, she let her have it the way her tongue allowed.

    The aunt was right after all. Drishti saw how everyone at the university, anyone she knew went home for Christmas. Even Sandra Bicker, her mentor who was going to take her to the Mercedes-Benz museum for design workshops, had change of plans. That she would choose Yoga Vacations in Lakshadweep was a surprise. Everyone seemed to be following the moon, sailing eastwards, leaving her alone in this beautiful, historic city flooded with visitors from all planets. The Mannheimer strasse filled up and the Christmas market at MarktPlaz was a carnival.

    Through the window, she would watch the early morning joggers along the Neckar. She had fewer acquaintances outside the university, and she felt embarrassed about her German (the language, of course). All this while, she got as far as “bitte” and “danke schon” and a smattering of syllables wrapped with her smile.

    Through the window she also got used to watching a stranger, an old man on a torn leather jacket, smoking many times a day, gripping the cigarette with his shivering left hand. She once spotted the man at the Aldi. She smiled but immediately admonished herself. He saw through her as if in a trance.

    She was getting used to the silence. Outside of the class, she remained focussed on her research, submerged in bed and books. She went out mostly for the hot nutella-topped pancakes at the Hauptbanhof. Her taste buds lead her to the Indian restaurant near the castle and she lapped up the daal soup. She wouldn’t go again, after the lady told her, “Here we don’t serve water on the table. Order a bottle if you need. Okay?”

    She missed home, yet she was hopeful in staying put. But she was not ready when the hostel concierge reminded her about reduced services during Christmas. The petite girl handed out a card with a smile, “This is the emergency contact number in case the building is on fire. If unattended, please leave a message. Someone will call you back immediately after Christmas”.

    Any other chance of surviving the lonely winter break in Germany? Shy and inert, she had declined Shreya’s invitation to join her on a week long trip to Salzburg. She decided she would finish Papillon in one go, to get buried in more books. After the first fifty pages, she got depressed by the hero’s prospect at the solitary Columbian prison. She promised to return to the pages of his escape after the new year. Not now, not in this state of mind.

    She had one final option. She searched the bags, the shelf, the other suitcase. Profound was her relief when she stumbled upon the notebook. She glanced through the names and numbers and searched for “Shyam uncle”. Aunt had spoken highly of her cousin settled in Dresden. It would be a five-hour train journey. Drishti schemed to bribe him and his family with the last bottle of aunt’s home-made lemon pickles. Maybe they would take her in during the holidays.

    She rang him, and in the first few seconds it was clear she need not bother booking train tickets. “No problem, uncle. Happy New Year!”

    Outside, the silence was total. The stranger-smoker-man-friend arrived. As he smoked away his morning blues, she felt his presence. His company.

    The day went on. The bridge on the river was buzzing with cars. A big beast of a bird spread its wings, descending to the waters. The lights and reflections of the cars and the boats and the birds traced lines on her glass-top table, merging and blurring. A moment so pure it didn’t slide into a meaning.

    When she opened the window, the phone rang, its ignored monotones regressing to the buzz outside.

    Drishti returned to Papillon.

  • The Flash

    We roam about our own unique worlds. Every once in a while, a friend appears, a flash of lightning strikes the sky. They shine on a patch of hidden garden, spot a faint promise silenced forever, and salvage a parched, passive soul. They gleam for a mere second, whoosh! back to their world. The velvet blue sky retains the only proof of their presence, a glimmer in our eyes cast wide.

  • You walk

    8’o clock, and you walk into the bee-hive of Brisbane CBD. Your ten minute stroll to office is a full length feature film. A kaleidoscope.

    You sidestep a broken tile, almost bump into the coffee cup of the man in front. School kids cross you like a herd of sheep, jostling, screaming, joyful. A lone smoker puffing away at the corner of the Marriott, watching an animated couple arguing in Spanish. You pass him fast, your lungs still suck in a hint of blue nicotine.

    The signal turns red, twenty more seconds. You close your eyes to bring in the smell of fresh coffee from the cafe called Morning Ritual. You open your eyes to the climbers and creepers up the stone-walled 19th century church, up to the many colours of Brisbane sky, coloured by its river, textured by its people. People you don’t know, you don’t know yet. New colleagues, new customers, new neighbours, new fellow-pedestrians.

    New cafe baristas too. You made a new friend earlier today. Karpin, the cafe owner, the sole barista who opens his shop each day at 6am, even on a Sunday. He told you he never took a break, never took a single day off in all ten years. Did you believe him? The man looked calm, and his flat-white stirred you up. You liked talking to him, talk about your grandfather, how he ran a restaurant, back in the day, not so successfully. You didn’t tell that part.

    You soak it all in. The signal is still red. What’s wrong? Ah, did time stop for you to breathe-in this glorious new city?

    You see the old lady with wild hair, storming across the pavement, deranged, rambling, in pain, almost blocking you. You sense she is hurt, lost, lonely, and never in a million years going to be a threat, yet you try ignoring her, avoid her trajectory, leaping towards the signal, and hope it turns green, oh God!, rush and jump into the pedestrian crossing, all the while astonished by your flight, your fright, and your sudden descent from that self-congratulatory, priestly state of altruism into a hollow pit of apathy, worse, disgust.

    You walk.

  • Amma will move again

    Amma will move
    Amma will move again
    She moved when asked
    She moved without asking.
     
    She moved across cities, jobs, and houses
    She moved well when she had it in her
    She climbed up the parapet
    To clean, to dust, to remove
    She ran to catch the bus to office
    To earn, to support, to care
     
    She lent her limbs to grind spices
    She bent her hips to sweep corners
    She swirled those wet clothes under the sun
    She spun around like a top
     
    She held her son
    She rocked her daughter,
    She kept eyes open,
    as they fell to slumber.
     
    She walked when needed
    She ran when needed
    She gasped for breadth
    Her legs were tired
    Her eyes were dry
    Her hips were weak
    Her hands were trembling
     
    She moved when she was young
    She moved when she was a teen
    She moved with her father
    She moved with her brothers and sisters
    She moved with her husband
    She moved with her son and
    She moved with her daughter
     
    She moved from Ramanathapuram where she was born
    She moved to Pudukkottai, and then to Coimbatore.
    She moved briefly to Hyderabad
    She then moved with all to Bangalore.
    She moved across three houses within Bangalore.
    She moved across two floors of the same house in Bangalore.
     
    She was moved again to Coimbatore
    She has been moving for the last seventy years
    She cannot move anymore.
    She cannot be moved anymore.
     
    Amma cannot move.
    But,
    Amma will move.
    Amma will move again.
  • Alter Ego

    The alter ego wrestles out, 
    out of the quagmire,
    it sings out loud
    in simple verbs.

    Across the crawling dullness,
    against the passive nothings,
    above the soulless whispers.

    It sings from the heart,
    it sings to the heart,
    deafening all them joyless cousins.

    It sings in blue,
    the colour of day
    It sings a colour,
    I had not seen.

    It sings a shape
    my hands conceal
    It sings a truth
    my verses obscure.
  • Silent Burn

    When I err and trigger
    her to hurt in anger,
    the "Sorry!"s burn in her silent terror,
    my stories flop down her upper lip tremor.

    Those calm eyes hide a fidgety beat within,
    a stray hair drops to her cheek's murmur.

    I plead once more,
    I plead an hour more.
    Off I go sleep in dread,
    my heavens in hell, thorns beyond.

    There! She sings,
    a fainty old dance,
    a smile benign,
    lets me crawl up grand.